Wednesday, January 06, 2010 9:28 PM
School was fine except that i was sick :/
I didnt know that i've got fever . Sore throat start this morning .
Headache start during class lesson .
Didnt care about it so much, training was cancelled due to rain .
I still eat fried food due to sore throat, went home take temperature, 38.3
Slept awhile and take temperature again, 37.1 now .
And now, my head is still hot and i'm having flu . Omg .
Tuesday, January 05, 2010 10:28 PM
Dont have to worry for me people, i'm alright .
It hurts so much, so much . It just couldnt heal .
I need more time . Maybe ------- will be the best way now .
6:50 PM
I wouldnt want to think of all those stuff if i can . But the problem is i will think, i will . Why cant i just stop thinking ? I hate myself, really hate it . I hate those tears in my eyes . I hate myself for the way i feel about you everytime. I wanna stop this , seriously . But i just fucking cant . I'm stupid, really stupid . I dont want to be like this , i want to be happy like the past . I dont wanna go school anymore, i really hope i could . I know i have to let go, i must . This cant hold on forever . Nobody would know how i felt, the feelings, the memories. You made a right choice, go on and live happy . I had a bad sleep last night, thinking and thinking. The same thing always came to my mind, i cried . Mum doesnt know, because i 'm crying silently . Its painful. I wouldnt want to wake her up . I dont want her to worry. Sister doesnt know, she is not in the room . I hope this wouldnt go on, i just wanna stop all these fucking stuffs . But everytime its the same things that came to my mind . Why ? I really dont wish too, its fucking painful . If i could ----- , would that feel better ? I'm confused . Maybe i would try it someday .
School have been alright today, teachers start teaching .
Got to understand some lessons . Training tomorrow .
Tomorrow will be a better day .
Monday, January 04, 2010 6:51 PM
Doesn't know why I've got this kind of feelings . Hate it seriously . All i want is to be happy . Can i ? This is so fucking difficult . I feel like crying but i told myself i cant . Really, how can i be happy again ? Like I'm supposed to be, not now like this . Sometimes i just wonder how i wish i'm not in this school anymore . Fucked up. I dont wanna put up a fake smile anymore . No more . Sick and tired of it, seriously . How i wish i'm not born ? Would that be better ? Hahs, stop here . I dont wanna drop more tears down .
6:04 PM
Sunday, January 03, 2010 10:31 AM
Friday, January 01, 2010 11:11 AM
Hey People ! Happy New Year ! :D
New Year, new start ! Throw all the unhappiness away and find those happiness (:
All the best to everyone in this new year ! Stay happy ! :D
Will post more when I'm back home? Or tomorrow ?
With photos too when i get them ! :D
Wednesday, December 30, 2009 9:33 PM
What a bitch ? What a bastard ?
Well, fucking idiotttttttttt .
9:09 PM
Meet up with Vera at 1 plus .
Cityhall, Marina Square, Raffles City, Jurong Point .
I bought my bag, its like finally ? HaHaHa!
Bought bracelet and anklet too (:
Photos with Vera , will post when i get them . (:
1 more day to 2010 .
5 more days to school reopen .
How fast can that be ? Hope i will be happy with my new class !
To ... , dont even dare to admit? Hum ji .
11:02 AM
Am going out with Vera later on .
Marina Square, Cityhall ... and more ?
Haha ! Sadly, Sheila cant make it . Clarrissa still in Malaysia .
Aww, hopefully there would be pictures and i'm not lazy to upload them up ! :P
I got to tell myself I'm alright all the time (:
